Okay so I just watched Up, and now I'm a giant pile of tears. Firstly, I'd like to say that Pixar hit their peak with that film, it was fucking amazing.
Secondly, it made me so aware of how much of a failure I am. My birthday is in about 21 days and I'll be 16, and I've gone through so much of my life and I still don't know what to do. There are kids younger than me who have their whole life set up for them, they know exactly what they want to do and they just do it. I started off at school successfulish and I got good grades. Then, something happened. I started just not doing work and I didn't care and my grades dropped down. Now in year/grade 10, I feel that I'm a lost cause and that if I don't make it, I'm screwed for the rest of my life.
I don't know what I want to do now. I know about 5 years ago I was saying "I want to do __ blah blah" and all adults would say "You don't have to make that decision right now". I'd always calm down but I know that I need to decide now or very very soon.
I seriously am lost with life and I don't know what I have to do. I'll take any bit of advice that can help me in any way.